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Ethnicity

Caucasian (white)

Body Type

BBW (Big Beautiful Woman)

Marital Status

Single

About Me

I recently discovered the meaning of friends. Friends are those people that stick around when you are at your worst, or tell you to shut up when you’ve said to much, knowing you will regret it later they save you the guilt. Anyway, I am twenty years of age, and enjoy the friggin hell out of it. I don’t need alcohol, booze or drugs. To be happy in life, I have one simple philosophy. LIVE. Don’t ridicule your body with foreign substances. Yeah… I am addicted to nicotine, but that doesn’t change my perspective or my cognitive abilities. Find something constructive to do, spend your money on books, gaming systems, movies, music. I’m sure you get the point. There are so many things in this world that you can see. See them. Learn to look past the things in life that tear you down to the bone. Things aren’t always going to go the way you planned. But in the end, it’s for the better. I mean, who wants a snobby kid that got everything in life. You don’t fully understand the meaning of life until you have felt pain. Or disappointment, we’ll I am here to tell you get over it. Shit happens, as my friend always says. That’s another thing that tugs on my attention strings. Dating, I hate it. I hate falling for people, I hate needing every part of them, I hate wanting more, and walking away with pain. I have learned to shut those off. I am no longer bothered as much by it as I once was. I’ve learned to just walk away, shut off myself once turned down. It’s amazing how quickly I can go from adoring you to completely just shutting off the things that attract me to you. Take recently for example. I liked this guy, but it was… “awkward” Ouch. Anyway, after that statement, I shut down. Just ignored everything completely and turned my head the other way. I will no longer stand in his way of making bad decisions. I believe everything happens for a reason. My reasons suck, but I get over it. Anyway, enough of my ramblings… I was born in September. I live in alliance, in my own place. I enjoy it, but it’s lonely. I need a roommate. I go to a club called the chamber. www.lakewoodchamber.net check it out, great place to go to. We drive about an hour and a half both ways. It’s worth it. I am in school to be a Graphic Designer. I am one of those rare people, the ones that you meet maybe once, or twice, but both brief meetings, but remember them for the rest of your life. Yeah, I am one of those. I get along with almost everyone… Some people I just hate on contact. Or in the end, hate them. I trust everyone until given a reason not to. I don’t like being lied to, it ruins my whole relationship with that person. I would rather know the truth and hurt for a while, than be in a euphoric life. Living like nothing is wrong, or living like not knowing something is wrong. Anyway, I am pretty in my own way. I have a cute face and gorgeous eyes. The rest lives inside of me. My heart, my soul. My being. What ever you want to call it, it’s in there. My favorite color is purple. I love tattoos and piercings, Baby blue eyes. WOW. I love to laugh and the snow, I love fall, and I love spring. I HATE summer, it should die. It’s to hot and to sticky. Hmm….

Favorite Music

Rock alt. Industrial goth, techno.

Favorite Movies & TV Shows

House, CSI, ER, Buffy, Angel, Charmed.