I'm a freshman at the University of Maine. I have a lot of friends... however we're all somewhat scattered.
I’m the girl that somehow does all the work. The girl that finds what she wants and is completely content with just that one thing. I try over and over, and lately all I feel is more agitated reaching for something that appears to be another waste of time. If you want to get to know me, make an effort. I'm not going to throw myself at your feet. I never said I was desperate.
I can be competitive. There are definitely times when I want things to go my way. I hate when people step onto my territory or approach the things that I'm trying to claim for myself. I didn't say I was perfect and I'm not trying to be. I beat myself up over every little thing: even things I can't control. It doesn't take much to please me, and then again it takes the world.
I've got an edge to me & I've got sarcasm down to an art. I'm a giver not a taker. I bend until I break... and then I bend some more. However, I don't have any respect towards anyone who is judgmental. I've got a pretty busy life and I really don't have that much time for many people.
I prefer deep conversation with emotion. I love personal life stories... especially ones I can relate to. I give away fractions of myself... the fraction you get is what I'm willing to give, but more importantly... it's about the fraction you give back. But don't give me any phony attention. I don't need to be built up with insignificant words in order to feel better about myself. The only eyes I need on me are the ones that care about my heart. People should be more sincere. Be it to me, or don't be anything at all. Show some concern for the people in your life--) you never know the emotional impact you may have on them.
If you want my attention then try and make me Laugh... but don't try and impress me. Just be yourself. I really don't believe in jumping on the band wagon, just to do so. I'm not a robot or a clone... I can make my own decisions... and I think other people should be able to also.
It's hard for me to act like I don't care about something/someone. I've never been the girl to just say it all, exactly how it is without some pushing and prying for the answers. It's hard trying to figure out all the give and take: what you should personally say/do. I'd hate to lose out on something because I didn't say how I felt, but I also don't like letting people know the affect they have on me. It's like once they understand how they can control you, BAM!... you are wrapped around their little finger. I feel like a puppet on strings that has lost all control over myself.
Anyways if you read all that, I have no clue what you think of me, just know that I’m just a human being with a head and a heart that sometimes never agree but are both easily affected. What you say and do is just as important as what you don't say/do.
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